Prayer When Your Heart Seems to Be Broken

 Sachi Nakamura (Translator of Christian Books, JCFN Board)

 

It was five years ago in fall. Like every year, a typhoon had just hit Japan and left serious damages in many regions. But the day after the storm passed through, clear blue sky would spread. There were many pictures of beautiful sky posted on Facebook.

Breathless to face crispy clear blue sky, I could not help feeling the heaviness of my heart.

“Heavenly Father, no matter how beautiful the sky after the storm, I cannot be moved by it as we have suffered so much damage and lost so many lives. We have many good and beautiful things in this world. But there also are so many cruel and miserable things. No matter how I try to think about “Whatever is true, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is pleasing, whatever is pleasing, whatever is commendable, (Philippians 4:8)”, those things look too small in comparison to too many cruel things in the world. Even when I try to be thankful for a good thing, in face of the magnitude of the misery out there, my heart is prone to be broken.”

Then, our loving Father who is filled with endurance and mercy spoke to me. “At the end of the day, I will restore everything and make everything right. You might feel anything you find good and beautiful in this world seem to be fragmented, too modest, or a mere drop in the bucket. But that is what I am giving you as the foretaste of the coming day so you do not lose hope. Do not doubt by thinking that the good thing would not last long or that would be too modest. Do not let the doubt gnaw at you. Just trust me. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice.  And the God of peace will be with you. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart. Jesus has overcome the world.

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This year again, a huge typhoon devastated West Japan. The earthquake of magnitude 6.9 struck Hokkaido the day after. At one time, nearly the whole area of huge Hokkaido lost power. Light was gone from cities and the darkness covered them.

But during that devastation, someone posted this picture on Facebook.

Photo Credit: Gosuke Shibazaki

It is a picture of the star-studded sky someone saw when he looked up sky in the blackout darkness right after the earthquake. What countless stars! Stars are completely filling the sky! These are not the stars which had not existed before the earthquake. These stars were always there. When all the artificial lights are gone, those starts, which had not been seen, revealed in the sky.

“Be still, and know that I am God!” (Psalm 46:10)

This Scripture came to my mind.

Presence, love, mercy, and works of God are always surrounding us and supporting us. Perhaps, as we try to do something on our own power, we might not be able to see God’s sign that surrounds us sometime.

When God said, “Be still, and know”, I thought perhaps God also meant, “Turn off all the lights that you produced on your own. Look up these stars that I have made brilliantly shine. I am always with you.”

We are called to be co-workers of the Lord. Our Lord would not desert us to work hard on our own. He is already with us and working. We just join Him. To do that, I think we have to periodically stop what we are doing, calm our hearts, and look to God who is there. In order not for us to start running on our own.  In order for us to remember that it is the Lord who reigns everything even when we are devastated by facing a huge difficulty, evil, or tragedy.

When you become still in front of the Lord, how about asking yourself with prayer questions like these? “Where can I find God in this situation? How God is working in this? How he is supporting me and guiding me? What does God want me to realize now in this situation? What does He want me to learn?”

You might feel an urge to ask “What should I do, Lord?” but just hold that question at this point. Before asking for what you should do, seek where God is and what he is doing. Listen to what He is telling you in that situation.

Facing a tragedy, people would ask, “Where is God?” This question can be rooted, not in the lack of faith, but in the hope coming from our faith and we could address this question to God. No matter devastating the situation can be, with your conviction that God is always present and working to show his love and care for his creation, humbly admit that you cannot see His present work and ask Him to help you see it. Once, someone said this. When we pray, we should not ask for a “sign,” but rather, ask for “sight.”

When we do that, He would let us see His presence, His Love, the works of His hands. He would let us realize those signs have been already given. Just like the sky filled with stars.

We might be in an extremely unreasonable situation when we feel our heart is broken. Unreasonable situation might not be coming from God. Or perhaps it was part of His plan. Or there are many cases evils prevail in contrary to His will.

The most important thing is to believe that God will redeem, restore and put all things to rights in the end. No matter how bad and grave the problem might be. And He is already working for it. Pray so you can find God who is in the midst of our pain, suffering, and difficulties. Open your eyes. Listen. Open your heart. Perhaps a little sign. Perhaps a big sign like a shift of paradigm. You may be given His Word. You may experience an unexpected encounter. What would God show you when you pray?

Also, let’s pray that He might make as His partner of His works of love that he is engaging in that situation. Finally at this point, you should pray, “What can I do?”

May our faith, patience, peace, and wisdom be increased in His mercy and blessing. At this time, we may be able to match the pace of our being and deeds to what God is doing.

Most often, this process cannot be completed by a one-time prayer. Rather, in many cases, it will be a part of our Spiritual formation process, which lasts long time. You might come up with new questions in prayers. Bring them to God without hesitation. You might be given amazing peace that surpasses your understanding. Immerse yourself in that experience without fear.

You might not feel anything after prayers. We cannot demand answers from God. He tells us whenever He sees right in a way He sees fit. Until then, let’s humble ourselves and keep offering our prayers. If you grow to be impatient, like the author of the psalm, you cry out and say, “Lord, until when?” No matter how we do, He will use this process of prayer to shape us to be like Him. And eventually, through us, He will bless the earth.

Are you in some kind of hardship? In confusion? In difficulty? In suffering or in pain? Please submit your situation to God and look up the sky filled with starts that we saw one more time.

 

“Be still, ant know that I am God.”

Small Groups are HOT now!  Hiromi Kakehashi Interview!

Hello, Megumix here!

First, I pray that life gets back to normal as soon as possible, after the floods and landslides in West Japan and the Hokkaido earthquake.

Well today I’ll share with you an interview with Miss Hiromi Kakehashi who serves as small group coordinator at Tokyo Baptist Church (TBC), and as small group coordinator for JCFN in her role as Associate Staff!

For those of you who know Hiromi-chan, you can hear her voice in this interview, let’s go!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Megumix:

When you say SG, what is it?

Hiromi:

In the course of a week, on a weekday, studying the Bible together, and praying for each other!

Megumix:

I see. Why are small groups so important in Returnees ministry?

Hiromi:

A SG is a place where you can share your thoughts and feelings which are unique heart to you as a returnee, things you can’t talk about at church, and have someone understand your struggles. It’s really important as there may be no one of the same age at the church you attend.And since the SG gathers people from various churches, you can share information about the church and learn about atmosphere of the church, so that returnees who haven’t yet found a church can find one.Also, it’s true that there are many cases that returnees have “returned to church through fellowship” which is a unique characteristic of returnees.

For example; “I was had dinner with a family and they invited me to church”, “When I was at college overseas, a friend invited me to Bible study and eventually to to church”. By these various things, many have been able to experience church overseas an enjoy valuable fellowship.

SG is more than study!!

Megumix:

Oh! That’s what I thought too! Starting with good food and fellowship, getting acquainted with Christians and then visiting a church. So it’s not just a place for study, but an important place to meet and connect with people. “SG is more than study!” is what it should be called for sure!

Hiromi-chan, why are you the small group coordinator?

Hiromi:

Perhaps the main reason is because I have passion to care for people. TBC is a big church and it’s really hard to follow-up everyone, but with small groups we can care for each person. When I thought about how to care for people, I think it’s through being the small group coordinator. Because there are returnees all over Japan it is hard for JCFN to follow-up on them all. But now through various small groups it is like having a mini JCFN office in many places.

Megumix:

It’s really encouraging that people are your passion and that may small groups have started. Having trusted leaders in various areas is important for the JCFN ministry to move forward.

Finally, what are your hopes and expectations for small groups? What is your vision?

Hiromi:

I hope that each small group would grow and develop and multiply, and that new small groups would start all over Japan so that where ever returnees go, there is a a JCFN small group! I want to welcome returnees in every place.

Megumix:

Thanks! I think sometimes returnees are anxious when they come home, and if they can meet and share, find church information, I have heard first hand about them finding a church to go to. In this way it  highlights the importance of small groups!

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Here is information about small groups. Please find a nearby group and join. Please if you live in an area without a small group, we want you to start one.

Small Group Information

For small groups in the Kanto/Tokyo area click here.

Small Group Host Meeting

Once every three months we meet at the JCFN office, share snacks and information. If you want to lead a small group join our meeting.

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