Going to the prayer retreat, C-BBWIT
After going to the prayer retreat, I realized that I’ve been pretending that I was already being 100% spiritually filled (even though I knew that I was spiritually parched and thirsty…).
It’s been a very long time since I was able to let go of real life, pray in silence, focus on God, and be still in my spirit. In my daily life, family takes priority. At times when quick decisions must be made, I actually want to listen to the voice of God and spend quality time with Him. But at the same time, I get caught up in everything. So, it was a great blessing that, in the middle of silent prayer, God very clearly showed me that He was with me every step of the way. While keeping in mind that I was given all these relationships (family, relatives, parents of school children, people involved in childcare services, etc.) so that I might take the love of Chris to them, I was able to reflect on the fact that I may have actually been consumed by these relationships (by the world). I resolved that I want to meditate on Romans 12:1-2 and be still in the presence of God. That I want to live my days in thankfulness of the life given to me and with my heart directed toward God, even if only for a moment.